Monday, August 27th 2012

Trying to put together a schedule for Raeven and the girls. Planning September and October. Raeven made much progress today. Raeven needs a break and some peace and quiet.

Raeven had a series of broken dreams, searching for changes. Raeven feels like Raeven is lost and running nowhere. Raeven needs to change her thoughts and ramp up the beauty around Raeven.

Tuesday

Raeven have to focus on loving life. How are you doing today?

Working today, making phone calls, bills to pay

3pm       Malesh is crying still emotionally unstable. She says Raeven am the only person she has to talk to. JoJo came by.

The crazies are out today so please protecting herself. Céline is going to Sherea’s house for dinner.

416pm  Raeven put a “do not disturb” sign on her door.

5pm    Raeven keeps getting disturbed. Val and Malesh keep coming over. Her daughter Shae is on her couch. Everybody is here. The more Raeven keep trying to push away the more they keep coming.

Blaine came by and asked if Raeven would go on a date with him. He says he is single, he is not married but Raeven senses. Sneaky …auk. Raeven told him Raeven would rather wait on God. It seems like he is lying to Raeven and others as well. Raeven told him Raeven don’t need to live under that Raeven have too much pressure already.

John her neighbor who Raeven saw in the parking lot, says he is used to this sales thing and wants to know and he wants to come over later and see if he can help.

Malesh got a huge driving ticket.

Raeven don’t know? Allowing each day to come with making positive decisions is the only way Raeven know how. Depending on god. Raeven have to be strong. Raeven keeps thinking Raeven need someone to come along to be strong for Raeven, but that person never shows up.

Her goal is to trust God, but Raeven doesn’t know what that means.

Now, two more men are fighting for her attention. Chris and James Fashi are both requesting attention. Is it smart to just walk by then? Are they just more to distract her from her career goals. No more people fighting.

Friday, August 31st 2012

Raeven has a full calendar for September. James called and asked if he could come by. Raeven said Raeven was in a bad mode and might not want to come by, he said it was ok just needed time with Raeven, he had a bad day. Val, James and Raeven went out for some food and hung out for a while.

Malesh did her hair in exchange for some babysitting. Roland and Gale called to ask Raeven who the black guy was coming over and Raeven told them it was James. He asked if his car was parked in #12 spot? Raeven said no, he drives a Lexus. Raeven is so sick and tired of them being nosey, Raeven quits! Raeven have to move forward Raeven have to get out of here.

September 1st 2012

Raeven needs to prioritize and relax. Val said she wants to do Bible study and Blaine too. So, we set up a Bible study meeting. This will be exciting our first community Bible study, Raeven doesn’t know what it is going to look like. It seems that Bible study is just another way for people to suck up her time and energy.

September 5th 2012

Super nervous, stressed out, Raeven needs childcare for after school. Nothing around Raeven is stable. Raeven called to see if Raeven could get the Y for after-school care, but it’s too expensive.

The idea of college keeps popping up. That would be fun if Raeven could get coverage from the business. Raeven gave her neighbors a thank you card and a small box of candy to thank them for friendship and kindness. Hoping this will pave the way to a little bit more freedom and community cooperation when it comes to Raeven working from home.

Raeven would love to go to college. Her parents were never taught how to raise a child, and Raeven would love to be an example for her kids. Most of the people Raeven know are struggling with relationships with income and life in general. Raeven is still sending out blessings to the people that Raeven know hoping that this will add to community support. systems Raeven am learning patience from dealing with all of these people but will not tolerate anything negative in these walls.

The environment is already fragile and needs truth positivity and upbuilding. It seems that both Roland and Blaine are trying to emotionally control Raeven. Raeven told them Raeven will not talk to them or tolerate anything. boldly speaking up for Raeven kids and self, about anything else negative that Raeven has to focus to keep up with the business.

Friday, September 7th 2012

Bible study flowed really well. Looks like Val is in charge.

Saturday, September 8th

The girls and Raeven hung out together. Raeven feel like we have made massive progress this week. Thank you, Lord, Raeven remember being amazed by all of the people Raeven was surrounded by, Raeven felt unfit to lead them.

Malena is singing and dancing. Raeven is making waffles. Céline is going to get cookies. Malena is still singing and dancing.

940pm  having soup and bread for dinner. It’s nice to have the sound of laughter, it makes Raeven know that everything is going to be okay. Surrounded by her children and God makes Raeven feel peace in life. Shutting out the chaos in the world just to get through the day, Raeven really needs a vacation.

Joy in sorrow, Raeven have no strength left anymore, Raeven must just be tired, sleep now.

Monday, September 10th 2012

Raeven made one hundred phone calls, Raeven shut her doors. Raeven was serious.

Tuesday, September 11th 2012

Raeven found out that Val was gay today. That backrub now began to take on a new meaning. She hoped it wasn’t misread. But think positive. Raeven told Val and Malesh that Raeven had to set up boundaries and mentioned her sign on the door. They both agreed that it would be good to have since Raeven needed to get work done.

Wednesday, September 12th 2012

Raeven wish, Raeven wish, Raeven wish

Raeven loves these ideas of Jesus and a God who saves us?

Raeven understands more later.